Pray for my love

I'm angry, I'm angry at myself, angry at destiny, angry at life!

I grew up a princess until the first storm hit when I was 16 and

I just decided that I had a bad life.

I used to think that I didn't have a good life.

I have food to eat, clothes to wear, place to stay.

Nothing very fancy but I always have enough, more than enough. 

Had couple of boys breaking my heart, that was it.

We take things for granted because

Today, I completely understand it. I feel it. Utterly. Entirely.

I always preach, I always tell people to appreciate, I always say it on my blog.
I should've tried harder, I should've known better, I should've tried more!

I was smiling happily. Making plans for next month, next year.

It all gets taken away today, I feel like my right to be happy has been stripped away.

I asked God why. Why me? Why him? He has been a faithful follower of God.

He's not perfect but he is a great dad, a great person, a great son of God.

Why him? Why me? Why my family?

I was smiling happily on Monday, I had plans today, tomorrow.

 Just like that. A phone call, a CT scan. That's all I get.

So sudden. So abrupt. It was unexpected. Unforeseen.

How rude can life be? How abrupt can it be? How did life just interrupt me like this?
Why? I've been a good daughter, good sister, good aunt! Why me?!
It's unfair! I've been a good family girl, a daddy girl, a mummy girl, I've been good!

Just how life gets to do this to us? How? WHY? Life doesn't have the right to!

I don't understand it but I have to swallow the fact.

Why do I have to swallow this? Why?

Because it's life.

Let my example remind you to appreciate your parents, your family.

Do not think that you still have a lot of time and family can wait.

No, don't do that. Don't take the small things for granted. Just don't.

You never know, live to the fullest with them.

Celebrate everything. Smile and laugh together. Go home for dinner. Hug them.

Tell them you love them tho it's cheesy.

Not enough, just not enough, never enough.

The storm just hit today, it was a big hit but I know this is not the worst hit.

The worse is coming but I don't want it to ever come.

 Please say a word of prayer for my love, Francis.

In your language, in your religion, in your prayer, in your words.

Say a prayer for my father.

Amen. God bless all of you.